Idle Thoughts..

Isn’t it weird how even the most private of private people will still fill out a profile…have a flickr…write a blog and who knows what else? I’m guilty of the exact same thing. I consider myself a pretty closed-up and private person for the most part – trust me when I say you are getting from me, only exactly what I want to give to you and nothing more. But I was tinkering with my profile again and I couldn’t help pausing and thinking – wtf? Why do I care if people know this or that about me? Why the fuck do they need to know? Here I am, Miss Private, but I will still let the world know who my friends are, what I enjoy doing, who I love. Why?

Humans must be naturally such self-centered creatures – even the most shy and withdrawn of us.

One of my favorite lines to find in a profile is: “it’s none of your business.” If it’s truly no one’s business but your own, why put it in something that is, from start to finish – for the public? Profiles by their very nature are intended for OTHER people to read – not yourself. Why would you profile yourself? You already know all that bullshit.

I also love that people tend to believe that by reading a person’s blog, or profile they KNOW that person. I would love to know what people think of me after reading my blog and profile. I’m bitchy and I have a poo fetish? HA. I guess I just tend to believe that people are way too deep for it to be all that simple – even when they’re so shallow. I also know that because of the nature of this beast (computers, the internet, etc) …we never truly “get” a person as they are or as they come, you get pieces and parts to make up a whole that you’ve perceived and which might not always be accurate or true.

I can count on one hand the number of people I would allow to say they “know” me. I could probably narrow that down to a couple of fingers, even. So it’s weird to me that I keep a personal blog, fill out a profile, and the like. I wonder why I do that.

This is me, avoiding working on poses. :p Alas, back to it I go!